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18Jul/070

lyrics

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

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10Jul/070

balcony @ night

balcony @ night

balcony @ night

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1Jul/070

gremlin

16a

16b

16c

16d

16e1

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26Jun/070

killbear

this year i avoided doing a bday thing by going camping instead... so clever!

another good year. this time we got a massive group site - if only we had known this earlier. group site = da bomb.

photos in the gallery

(i can't believe i said 'da bomb')

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21Jun/070

another year & google

another year older... another year wiser?? hmm... i dunno about that. i still feel the same goofy retarded self - at least i haven't lost my self-awareness.

so 2 weeks ago, i got a message from Google asking if i was interested in a programming position - apparently they still had my resume on file from when i applied in 2002. at first i thought it was a joke (coincidentally this email arrived the day after a friend forwarded me a link to a video of Working Life @ Google) but after reading the email, i quickly realized that they actually were interested in me!

i forwarded an updated resume and then they responded with glowing praise and asked me to fill out a little questionnaire. i filled out the questionnaire and then they responded with interest to set up a phone interview. throughout this whole process i kept thinking to myself: why would Google be interested in me???? i'm a nobody!

anyway, i did the phone interview and was invited to do a technical interview. however, i thought about it more and even if i was fortunate enough to be offered the position, the opportunity didn't match my career goals/plan. i'd have to take another step back and give up everything i came back from australia for. also, i'm at a great company now and i am really enjoying my current job - it would've been one of the biggest decisions i'd ever have to make. if it was any other company, i probably would've told them from the start that i was not interested in a new job. so, after a lot of thought and discussions with family and friends, i decided to send them an email and tell them that i was no longer interested.

it felt good though. *I* said NO to Google instead of waiting for them to [possibly] say NO to me. muahahahaha!

by doing what i did, does that demonstrate that i'm wiser? hmm... who knows. i know i'm happy where i'm at now and that's all that matters. c'mon, that was pretty smart right? i guess i have picked up a few things over the years. as my friend kasumi-ifer would say: i'm not just a hat rack!

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19Jun/070

bessarion station

sunday afternoon eze and i passed through bessarion subway station on the way to canadian tire. as we disembarked the train, we came across a creepy photo on a pillar in the station:

creepy bessarion photo

creepy bessarion photo

the first thing you notice is the slightly blurred face of a child and everybody else in the photo is looking in the opposite direction. if you look closely though, the child's head looks like it's just floating in the middle of the group:

creepy bessarion photo

creepy bessarion photo - baby?

we began analyzing the photo trying to pinpoint the person carrying the child. we refused to believe this was supposed to be a 'creepy' photo. based on our analysis, the best child carrying candidate was the man with the dreads. it was our assumption that he was carrying the baby on his back:

creepy bessarion photo

creepy bessarion photo - dreads man baby carrier?

but as we looked at the photo more, eze noticed that the floating child wasn't the only odd thing of the photo:

creepy bessarion photo

creepy bessarion photo - ET?!

anyone have an explanation for the E.T. silhouette??!!?!?

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16Jun/070

dr. chang!?

congratulations!!!!!

dr. stella chang

presenting dr. s. chang

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11Jun/070

sports pains

i'm getting old.

it's monday and i hurt all over - sore back, tight muscles, stiff joints - bleh. all i did was participate in a competitve vball tournament on saturday from 8:30 - 3:30 (we made it out of the first round! woohoO!) and play a softball triple header sunday afternoon/evening. it's SOFTBALL!?! how can i be sore?

the sports filled weekend reminded me of the days when the 3 Ms (mak, mendel and me) would play anything and everything any free moment we had. even when we walked to school or to the grocery store we'd bring a soccer ball and kick it around as we walked. we always knew, if you wanted to find one of the others he was either in class or at the gym. all that physical activity didn't hurt me back then... why does it have to hurt now?! boo.

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6Jun/070

code monkey’s complaints

i know this is a little dorky but i have a HUGE pet peeve with poorly formatted code.


HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO READ/UNDERSTAND/MODIFY CODE THAT'S ALL SCRAMBLED TOGETHER!? it's like trying to read a book that has no paragraphs or spaces between words.


ok, i feel a bit better now.

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30May/070

nash & soccer

that steve nash... he's such a swell guy. his take on the fact that the window of winning a championship is slowly closing for him after an unfair turn of events in game 5 of the suns & spurs series that likely cost them their chance of winning this year:

For me the window is the year in front of you and that's it. We lost our window this year but we have a new one next year. I don't look at it any further than that.

focus on the opportunities you do have and don't dwell on the missed opportunities of the past. nice.

photos from the soccer tournament in the gallery.

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